An incident 2 years back totally change my life. I was in denial and nonchalantly going about my life, without a care as to what happened but on the morning of 31st of October 2005, my life changed dramatically.
I have lost someone i loved dearly. At times I cannot comprehend how time flies. It felt it was just yesterday that I was still talking to her, holding her hands and feeling her presence, and suddenly she is no longer there.
Today is my mum's death anniversary. Time really flies and I miss her no less than when I lost her 2 years back. I hope and pray that where ever she is, she will be blessed and be constantly in my prayers and thoughts. May the blessing of the triple gem be on her. Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu.
Not feeling well these past few days. Having sniffles and a wicked sore throat. Sometimes I wonder if I haven't had enough rest but it started as soon as the Raya holiday was done. I was off for 2 days and i spend my days off sleeping. You heard me right, I was sleeping and sleeping and boy I really couldn't remember when was the last time I slept so much. Probably aeon's ago.
Anyway, I am currently down with a bad sore throat as well as a some low grade fever. Needless to say I am taking medications to help alleviate my condition. I look back and the last time I was sick was like a couple of months back. Gone were the days when I don't get sick, but hey, having exposed myself to torrents of organisms and not get sick once a week is sort of a miracle in the making already. Coupled with not enough sleep/rest and exercise...You do the maths.
I reckon the weather and the incessant rain also play a pivotal role in my latest infirmity. Although I concede I am not longer as young or as fit as I want to. I just hope that I'll be tip top in a day or two and working now seems to be worst than usual. I find it difficult to communicate with my patients especially having a hoarse voice like what I have at the moment. In a couple of hours more, I might totally lose my verbal activity. Hopefully the medicine that I am taking would prevent this from happening.
Here's to drinking plenty of water and visiting the loo often.
1) we spend hundreds of millions to put a tourist in space but is unable to provide decent pay for our servicemen.
2) we build super expensive SMART tunnel drainage system which is unable to prevent floods
3) we spend loads on an international airport only to be used as a place to house Banglas.
4) we resurface roads only to be dug up later by utility companies
5) have laws but no implementation.
6) we have chauvinistic Male MPs vilifying a woman's period in parliament and getting away scott free.
7) we have to pay for the repair of a bridge that costs more than the initial cost of the bridge due to shoddy workmanship
8) Get discounts for not paying your compound fines on time.
9) the parliament discusses punishment for a student for singing a rap version of the national anthem but nothing is being done to catch the snatch thieves and criminals that murder, rape and pillage.
10) when a boy who forgot to carry his ID card was jailed 6 months and murderers gets away scott free.
Another few more days to go....., deep inside my mind, i have to constantly remind myself to be patient and the weekend is looming. It's during this weekend that I have at least some semblance of a normal life. One thing that needs to be celebrated though, this particular weekend is better in the sense that it's a holiday weekend, which basically translates into a longer "break".
So how has life been treating "moi". First thing firsts, nothing much changed, and the status remains at a "quo". Working day in and day out, without having much time is what I have grown accustomed to. I reckon having to constantly fight it is no solution, just have to look at the brighter side of things and nonchalantly taking it one day at a time, single stride at the time.
Can I imagine myself being in the same situation in a few years?, truth be told, I don't plan to be in the same predicament when the time comes, I am planning to semi retire in about 4 years when I touch 40, but alas being practical, I reckon a little beyond that is what I need to at least set my plans into action.
I have been a bit slow to start building a comfortable "nest" which I could retire on, but sad to say, it hasn't been going according to plan. If things continue at the current pace, I could imagine that my plan of retiring in 4 years needs to be doubled, although I am actively striving to get my plans underway before the deadline.
Hopefully, with loads of hard work, grit and plenty of luck, my fortunes will change and I'd be sipping my cold Heneiken somewhere in another few years time, but zipping back to reality, it's midweek and the daily grind is still very real. Ah well, it's never harmful to fantasize a bit. Alas back to work.
Currently listening to oldies but goodies, Pointer sister's "Jump- for my love". A cute song, from yesteryears.
Sometimes listening to oldies brings old memories from my yesteryears. If I can move and shake my booty, I would although I might add that it would be totally inappropriate conduct to pull something like this in my clinic. Ah well, maybe I'd do that when i am in my comfort zone at home. hehe.
What is in store for the long hours today? Absolutely nothing. It's a waiting game and currently the onus is for me to sit and wait. Its' boring to the hilt, I know.
Anyway listening to that song at least helps to alleviate my feelings. Isn't it a wonder that a single song can help chase the blues away? :)
Here's a song with Hugh doing his "stuff" in Love Actually, dorky as he is, I wonder if I am even able to replicate his "moves" with my stiff back? :p Anyway here goes............ JUMP!
Tomorrow is the day that I can rest although a little, i have plenty of things mapped out and have to get it done before the day ends. Sometimes I wonder if having only a day which i am not at work is sufficient? Truth be told I am sure it isn't but I don't seem the see any alternative in this present arrangement. Maybe in another year, when things are picking up, I might be able to take a partner or a part time locum to cover one of the days.
The most important order of the day is to get my teeth checked. Yeah, I have been meaning to get it done for a long time but it keeps being postponed due to my inappropriate timing as well as other more pressing issues that I need to address. I made an appointment with my former classmate so that I could get my teeth examined and if need be, scaled and cleaned. I don't think there is anything serious with my teeth at the present moment, but still it needs to be subjected to dental examination every 6 months or so.
For someone my age, having a full set of real teeth is by no means easy. I have seen plenty of my friends, having dentures. Maybe it's their habit of smoking, drinking and inappropriate hygiene that is accelerating the caries formation and whenever I see receding gum lines, it never fails to give me a shudder. Periodontitis is a huge problem with people in these parts of the world when teeth may become loose and needs to be removed. I reckon buying an electric toothbrush saves me a lot of hassle of brushing it myself. Hehe, lazy man's way to cut corners.
Anyway hope the examination doesn't cause me too much discomfort. If not, when my friend comes to see me for "his" medical condition, I'd give him an extra huge injection!
It's been ages that I have last posted anything. Sometimes I couldn't stop but wonder time is really passing at a much faster speed as compared when I was still young.
Is it accelerating and in a much faster pace compared to last time? It certainly felt like it. I reckon I should be happy though, at least I am not having anything bad happening to me. Consolation aside, someone commented about my appearances. It would seem that I look very haggard and tired. I told them that's due primarily to the ravages of time. It sounded more appropriate thought.
What is my future direction? Seriously time have been speeding me by and I can hardly take a breath, let alone think of my future direction. One things' for sure though, I will most definitely venture into it alone.
Well, another day for me and as the clock strikes 12 tonight, a new day will dawn and I suspect, would be like many days before it. Monotony is the order of my life. One thing though, at least it's a Friday tomorrow.
About me? I am a burn out mid thirties single medical practitioner, currently practising on my own, a lone ranger of sorts in the unpleasant and congested place.
